Thoughts on Sin

A small reflection and writings by C.S. Lewis

Well, I have been humbled.

See, I have been pompously and ever so righteously been walking around for years thinking I was above everyone else because I was not a sinner.

When you foolishly imagine your perfection; you put yourself up on this very high pedestal, looking down on all in judgement.

Sooner or later, the fall will come and it is not a gracious fall.

What caused my fall. I did something that I never thought I would do. It was extraordinarily shocking that I could give into temptations so quickly and easily.

I am reflecting on this because it has changed me.

In my relentless pursuit to better myself, I search for answers.

I found this in a book I have by C. S. Lewis..

His writings always resonate for me.

“I know all about the despair of overcoming chronic temptations. No amount of falls will really undo us if we keep on picking ourselves up each time. We shall of course be very muddy and tattered children by the time we reach home, but the bathrooms are ready, the towels are put out, and the clean clothes are in the cupboard. The only fatal thing we can do is lose our temper and give up. It is when we notice the dirt that God is most present in us: it is the very sign of his presence.”

What did I get out of this writing by C.S. Lewis?

Temptation is unavoidable. I will give into temptation over and over again. It actively pursues me and seduces me. I must face temptations without reserve or fear. I am flawed and imperfect.

I went to another book which resonated even more. I read Psalm 139 and from these words:

I remembered that God loves me in spite of myself. He ordained my every day and knows my every thought and action before they occur. Humbly, I remember, my God is a forgiving God. He forgave me before I even fell.

Oh so reflective,

Susan