C.elibacy

I had a suprising comment the other day that has me thinking.

The person said, 'you carry your celibacy around like a trophy.'

Interesting. I never thought of it that way.

I just thought of it as a tortuous situation not a trophy.

I, at this point, don't think I have a choice. I can give 'it' up
or wait for HIM.

I think HE is worth the wait and when HE comes I can give him
the TROPHY!

Giving up my "Juiciness"

Wveryone tells me to just find a guy and get my ‘groove’ on but I can’t do that.

First, it would be giving myself away cheaply and second, it would be like cheating on HIM…. I have waited this long - 6 years, 6 months and 27 days but who is counting.

I mean, I am waiting on HIM and if I give my ‘juicy-ness’ up to someone unworthy, then what will I have to give to HIM.

If I don’t wait, then all I will have to give HIM when HE comes is guilt and shame.

I want to BLESS HIM, not CURSE HIM…………………………

Maybe my thinking is messed up. I might be too old fashioned. I don’t know.

I just have to wait on HIM.

HIM
HIM
HIM

Where are you?
Hurry up and get here already!

Over a Year

It has been over a year since I wrote on this blog.

Not much as changed but then a lot has changed. I asked God
to change me and that is what has changed. I asked him to change me
because I want to fall in love. And I realized I had wounds that I had
to have healed so I asked to be restored and refined for the man
who I would fall in love with. Because in the past year I have realized
that I want to fall in love deeply and madly with the man made for me.

I want God to bring me a hero so I have to become a heroine. I lost
myself somehow and forgot that deep inside me is a heroine.


Waiting
Waiting
Waiting

for

HIM.